im in correge yey

sittin here sewing, listening to the machine, and i noticed another band called 'samsara blues experiment', which led my idle mind to start pondering samsara, which is basically the world (of il/de-lusion) we live in.i cant remember the exact thoughts that led me to thinking about how when we see things, its only photons bouncing off the object that the pits in our eyes are able to catch, not the actual object. i realized this is similar to how when we talk, its only noises representing objects that we're experiencing, not the object itself. which made me want to go ahead and try to apply this to all the senses. we've covered hearing and seeing, so -
smell -
taste -
touch -
thought -

actually im sure we can all take it from there/im feeling lazy. i dont think this is the definition for or reason behind the idea of samsara, but it certainly supports it well. cause theres always the object thats still there, i mean come on, ITS RIGHT THERE ITS GOTTA BE REAL.
so whats new with me? i actually finished that book with early versions of buddha's sermons. sweet i just got my period, only 2 weeks late! >.> a few weeks ago i went to my first furmeet, at isaac's in pittsburgh, and it..was..AWESOME. one of the best experiences of my life. i had never met anyone there before, barely talked on the website, and i got along so well with everyone and had an incredible amount of fun. i find that amazing, im usually no good interacting with people i dont really know, but i feel like they rather liked me :'D i've found my niche i do believe. the next day i hung out with emily and steve, that was pretty rad as well. it was so pleasant, we made some breakfast (in the afternoon), watched loony toons for awhile then wandered around awhile. i loved the wandering part, i find big cities so fascinating. and it made me realize how much i love wearing a tail. thank god hitch is making me a new one though. im trying to finish a partial suit for halloween, im pretty sure itll get done by then, if its done well beforehand i kindof wanna meet up with a local fur and wander around downtown bradford in it, get the feel of it and such.
lately ryan and rytz have been hosting little shows in and around the crit, thats been pretty awesome. i get to go home on the weekends, and when i get to hang out with friends and jam to some live bands it makes me so happy. i finally got a t-shirt, a black outsiders one. a few weeks ago i was seriously under the influence of alcohol and lamb's breath, and one thought track led to another and i had my second self-induced dmt trip of serious intensity. it was intense, but amazing while it lasted. (haha apparently theres 2 bands called the machine, some kind of techno just started playing) i learned and experienced some important things, but there are 2 unfortunate things about this experience. first, i was in a car full of people so if they tried to interact with me i had no idea and they probably just saw me sitting there looking kindof like :D~ which is mildly embarrassing as i never got to explain myself. second, after the actual trip i got thrown into some kindof hellish bad trip, i blame the alcohol. i was still stuck on the same kind of thought tracks, but in a bad, bad way. for 2 hours. it was so awful, but atleast it was a learning experience. id like to know whether i have a propensity for tripping myself out, or whether it happens to other people alot too but they dont know what it is. if its the second, i think its still kindof rare cause i have yet to hear anything similar being described by anyone.
i could go on to describe dorm life, my love life, how schools going, and other things im sure. but i wont, maybe next time i feel inspired to write here.