changes

theres been alot of those lately with me, its weird but i dont feel like its bad. it seems sometimes like theres some kind of shift going on inside me..i wanted to list all the little things that have changed but now that im thinking about it i cant come up with any. i mean there are the big obvious ones, like me moving in with my aunt, finding someone to love and all the things that come along with those. the only thing i can think of right now is that im suddenly willing to wear shoes. not all the time, just when i need to, but still, before i would have put up a big fight about it, big for me anyway. and ive been writing, it first started at the beginning of the summer but now i feel like its so much easier, ive got even more inspiration and it flows like it didnt before the summer. i dont think this has to do with the shift i was talking about, more to do with how different this situation is for me, but ive been getting stressed out alot lately about getting a job. and since ive decided to stop smoking for it, im afraid it could get even worse, i just have to keep reminding myself not to take it so seriously, its only temporary, etc.