our real world

i came back up to coudy for the weekend, and i feel like i dont want to go back. i have 1 friend there and my relatives who mostly just bother me about getting a job/education over and over when i already know the stuff they repeat to me anyway. but today was really nice, maybe thats why i dont want to go back either, cause i love it here so much. i do rather like it there..im bothered still and i wish i could figure out why, i think im on to something about me being afraid of changing myself or something, i really am happy with my life but i wish i didnt have to have things that bother me this bad and i really dont see anything wrong with that, maybe other people should start to stop just accepting their crappy ways of life that society tells them is normal and unchangeable